Stalemate – I lay down my king; I lose

Stalemate.  It is a term used by chess players.  I am not going to go that deep into explaining chess, but I will say that if you ever hear it, it means that you cannot move any more.

Today, while praying, I heard the Lord say to me, “stalemate.”  I cried a little but then realized a little of what He was saying.  I play chess.  I like chess.  Stalemate to me means to me that I cannot move anymore.  In chess you can run from your opponent, chase him, or let him lose on his own.  Well, God wasn’t chasing me.  I was actively running, nowhere.  Everywhere I ran to He was there.  From the East Coast to the West.  He was there.  Just like a chess board, all the way around and He would find me there.

Now hindsight that was good.

As He spoke this word I was meditating on the scriptures Luke 9:19 and down.  It wasn’t a meditation that I chose; more like one that He chose.  I kept reading it over and over. Soon I was thanking Him.  Whatever came to mind I began to go deeper with.  Then the: STALEMATE.

I began to google the word. I knew it was a chess move as I often refer to God about whose move it is.  We go back and forth like this.  Well, in a stalemate, the game is over.

After I read the google definition I went deeper.  I enquired. I put people into the place of pieces. I placed myself as the king being checked by God.  There was nowhere else for me to move.  What? Nowhere else for me to go?  What was God speaking?  I dried my tears and listened.  I had a vision of the Lord Jesus laying His life down.  No one could take His life, He laid it down.  I then reached out to God, hands open arms outstretched and head raised saying,
“Lord I surrender.  Into your hands I commit my soul,” then I thought about it and changed it to, “spirit.”

After saying those words to God, I had to think about what I was actually saying.  I was like, thinking, like what did I just say…….

Immediately, I thought of Jesus being persecuted.  Luke 9:22 – Son of man must suffer.  As He prayed, Moses and Elijah, came and spoke to Him about His death.  Peter spoke about building three tabernacles.  Luke 9:34-35 – God, the Father, in a cloud overshadowed them and spoke that Jesus is His beloved Son: hear Him.  Even now revelation is pouring in and I know that I must listen to Jesus.

Eye opener – apparently, I wasn’t. Nah!  I was. But I recognize that hearing now will be different.

Stalemate.  Even I f I wanted to run anymore I couldn’t.  Every move I considered was right back into His hands.  So, I laid my king down.  I surrendered.  Totally unto the other team.  The Father, The Son, and the Holy Ghost.  They had won, and I was defeated.

My new life.  Amen.

Alwonza

Accountability

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This photo has become my screen saver. My motivation. My focus point. As I scroll on my phone I will constantly be reminded of what I Ned to be doing. Sometimes I play Cookie Jam and Pet Rescue while I pray and wait on God. Now I will wait while writing. While doing what He is requiring of me.

I have often asked God what is my purpose. Well, I now know. I have been delivered of many spirits that have rose up against His will for me in my life. Now I am inexcusable, O man. ( Romans 2:1). God always provides a scripture. Gotta love Him.

So, I am writing this post today to be held accountable. To myself and to all who read this post. I have been disobedient in what the Lord has asked me to do.

I remember in December 2015, the Lord asked me to do Periscopes about what He tells me. They were to include revelations and daily devotionals and scriptures and whatever other words or lessons that He would have me to share. I did a few and then I fell off. I thought that they were too long. Then I thought that no one was interested.

Fast forward to November 2017, I had accumulated a myriad of excuses and the Lord removed them all. He had provided the MacBook pro and an environment to write in. I started again and then found many other reasons to not continue.  To not persevere. To not be diligent in His work.

Now, February 2018, I have no excuses.  He has provided the environment, money, time, and circumstance.  I have my motivation back. I am determined and focused. I have thought out a plan to remain on track.  My full-time job is driving for Lyft so I will drive at night and early mornings and I will write in the morning and afternoons.  I like this vision.  I actually see myself doing it and accomplishing what the Lord has set how to complete in me.

John 4:34  Jesus saith unto them, My meat is to do the will of him that sent me, and to finish his work.

Jesus lives in me, therefore I have all I need to do the will of Him that sent me.

Philippians 1:6  Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ:

I know that Christ has called me to write and to Blog therefore it is a good work and He will continue this work min me until the day of Jesus Christ.  some may say, hey, I will be dead by then.  And my answer to that is that my work will still be continuing, long after my death.  A legacy for my children and for my children’s children and for their children and their children and their children…..  God is true and faithful and His word never dies.  It is alive.  So, until the day of Jesus Christ, you can believe that this work will not fall to the ground.

My motivation to myself right now is that God will send the people. As long as I am doing what He has called me to do then He shall provide the audience.  I was not called to write to myself or for myself but for all those that He sends.  therefore, all I believe I have to do is to write what He has supplied and the demand will be evident.

Thanks for reading.

Until next post…. Lord thank you for the revelation of your vision for me.  Lord I ask that all who read this and has a writing call upon their lives that it is activated.  I loose the bands that are holding them back.  Lord, I ask that you free their minds to be used by you and to hear your voice for their content.  Be blessed, in Jesus name amen.

First blog post

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I have started this blog to continue my journaling. I have been journaling for over 8 years.  I am now capturing my journaling into books.  For the remainder of the month of December, 2017, my journaling and my blogging will overlap.

This blog, with my full intentions, are to replace journaling for me.  I have captured a lot off line and now want to generate my content online.  I have tried blogging before and I really enjoyed it.  I did not continue with it because I got side tracked.  Since then, my focus and my maturity level have increased and I have come to know and realize that blogging is easier.  Journaling has been very convenient but transferring the content is not.

I am very excited about picking up blogging again.  This blog will mimic my journaling, which I hope will keep my mental transition to a minimum.  I have chosen this platform because I can use it anywhere; on my phone, laptop, library’s, borrowed gadgets, and more.  There is no limit to my posting.  Which, with my journaling, I was limited to my Apple devices, no libraries, and sometimes pen and paper.

The world is advancing.  New generations are being born everyday.  This era is growing more and more steadily to electronics.  I have to keep up; I have to get onboard or miss out.  Life will leave you behind and I refuse to be back there, straining to see what is happening in front of me.

So, on this blog, my day to day will be revealed.  People I encounter.  Places I go.  People I meet.  Lessons I learn and have learned and  how God uses me.  Nothing is limited because I live in a world, serving a God, of endless possibilities.

Of curse, I will keep you informed of the progress of my publishings and you, too, can hold me accountable.  I have over 10 books written but none published.  My goal this upcoming year is to publish 8 of them which will include my series of Conversations with God.

Conversations With God is comprised of 8 books, arranged chronologically, since 2015,  with one entry from 2012.  I have daily been capturing our conversations as He has led me through many valleys an over numerous hills.  He has defeated legions of Goliaths for me and brought down insanely high walls.  I have crossed many rivers and spent countless days and nights in the dessert.  Living in the wilderness has become the norm.  Trusting Him to have my back allows me to walk blindly, faithfully forward.  I grabbed hold of the plow and I ask myself who is my mother and my father.

And then, only after 2 years of gaining testimonies, did I realize it is not by works.  It is not the fasting, or the communions, the consecrations, the tests or the trials; it is the love that I have for my Heavenly Father and for everyone that I have and will cross paths with.  I learned this through journaling.  I learned this through relationship with the Father.  I learned this through obedience to Jesus Christ.  If it was of works I would boast but it is by grace through faith, which is a gift from God.  A gift, just because, He loved me first.  A gift I did not realize I had and that I could only open after He called me and brought it to my attention.  I love Him for it and you will witness that in this blog.

When I am not blogging I am posting on Instagram @alatoyav.

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