Vessels – What Is In Your House?


Vessels are containers.

Today as I was praying the Lord was leading me into my kitchen.  He got me in there by showing me my belly. Food. So, I thought, ok, I’ll go eat.  I place my leftover Chipotle into the microwave and shift.  I go to get some water.  I fill up my cup but as I place the cap back unto the water I realize that some spice from my finger is on now on it.  The Lord has my attention.

I move to take the water to my room.  Yes, I thought I was going to be eating bedside.  I come back into the kitchen because I remember the tea that is in my refrigerator.  I believe the Lord wants me to have some tea.

I reach for the cabinet.

I grab both doors at the same time.

I pull them open towards me.

The doors open.

I see the cups. (naturally)

Both arms open wide with doors in hand.

My eyes open and there are the cups.  (spiritually)

I release the doors.

The anointing, a wave of air, a presence, a feeling hits me.

I recognize it as the Lord and as I am ushered in I weep.

My arms are free of the doors and I drop my head and I began to weep.  My arms are outstretched, and I visualize Christ on the cross.  I know His presence but this posture that I am in I want to stay in, so I began to repent.  I say, “Lord forgive me.  Lord, I repent for sins known and unknown.”  I repent because I want to stay in His presence.  I want to receive what He is saying.  Now repenting is just my way of a “coverall.”  From experience, this has worked for me in the past.

I now receive.  As I look up and open my eyes the Lord reminds me of:

2 Kings 4:3.  Then he said, Go, borrow thee vessels abroad of all thy neighbours, even empty vessels; borrow not a few.  (KJV)

When I read this verse, I see many different vessels.  Many different colors and many different sizes and shapes. The same in my cabinet. As I chew this verse and swallow it and bring it back again, meditate, I apply it to my life.  Right now, I am about to make an investment.  God says, go borrow.  I think of from whom and where and how.  I have no credit cards.  I have been reviewing my credit and wanting to reestablish it.  As this widow received word from the prophet Elisha to go borrow to start her own business so shall I.  I will use the borrowed money to start what I believed has been placed into my hands to do.

I used to think that borrowing was so wrong because I am the head and not the tail; I am a lender and not a borrower.  Those verses are wonderful, however, they stuck me.  I stayed and lived on those scriptures getting rid of credit cards and waiting for – more.

When reading the word of God, I never saw this widow as a borrower.  I never caught that part of the verse.  I read it and skimmed over it in mind and understanding.  No more!  My understanding came when I opened my cabinet and saw the many vessels that I already have.  I have already borrowed.  I already have in my house, in me, what I need to become an entrepreneur.

2 Kings 4:2. And Elisha said unto her, What shall I do for thee? tell me, what hast thou in the house? And she said, Thine handmaid hath not any thing in the house, save a pot of oil. (KJV)

I carry the oil.  I have the vessels.  I have a word from the prophet.

The Oil– the anointing

The Vessels-I have borrowed; knowledge, wisdom, and understanding from all those before me.  Naturally, preachers, teachers and speakers.  Spiritually, the Word of God and revelation through reading, fasting, and praying.  I have what it takes to do what God has called me to do. Amen.

The word from the prophet-GO. A command to move. An instruction. Furthermore, obedience.  This scripture of inspiration becomes my foundation.  I can now say that I have a word to act on.  A scripture to lunge forward from.  A revelation to stand on.

Go and Borrow was the first command (2 Kings 4:2, KJV)

Go and Sell was the second command.  (2Kings 4:7, KJV)

Attached is the video. Enjoy.

3:26 minutes.

Why I Went AWOL – God Told Me To


This photo is the flight deck of the ship that I was stationed to.  I was standing on this platform when I saw the vision of the man jumping ship.


Me again with one foot in and the other one out. (not sure who the guy is)

Why I went AWOL – God told me to.

I was in the Navy and went to work like any other day.  Got there early and found my way to the flight deck.  It was the end of June, so we would all gather outside on the top of the ship; the part where helicopters landed.  As we were lining up I saw out of the right corner of my eye a man jumping ship.  It was so real that I told my friend in front of me. I said, “I just saw a man jump.”

Yes, she believed me. At this time in my life I was seeing things and hearing things and learning, Jesus.  I didn’t know much about visions (opened or closed) or the prophetic. I wasn’t being taught by anyone because we spent so much time on the ship.  My basic time with Jesus was reading and praying and fasting.  As I was seeing things and hearing voices I just believed them.  So, when I saw that man jump over ship in the spirit I wondered what it meant.  Below, I share one day from my journal about how it came to be, me, going AWOL.

6/30/2016@0425. Thursday


Jump ship means to run. Amen. Run from whom? The ship? I was talking to my friend. Amen when the Lord spoke it and showed me the vision amen. @0426


Lord send me I’ll go, draw me I’ll come.

Draw me: call me. Yes Lord. Amen.

Call me to what Jesus: 


Amen. I do not answer God fast enough. Amen 


The Lord is my covering. Amen. He is my protection. He is my shepherd. Psalm 23

Song. Safe in his arms. Milton @0445 


What honors the Lord the most. Amen.



Run as fast as I can to evangelizing amen.  God will cover me. Protect me. Lord. Where do I send your people?

Lord I just ask that you never leave. No Lord. You have never left me. Yes Lord. Send me I will go. I will run. Amen.

My name is Alwonza I AM. Thank You Jesus 


God called me a nomad. Amen.

Nomad: having no permanent abode. Amen

Travel from place to place to find fresh pasture; does not stay long in the same place. A wanderer. (

The Lord gave me this word for the first-time last night. I thought it was something bad amen. As the world has trained me to perceive. Amen. But the Lord is using it for the good. Amen. @0514 


While typing about nomad the Lord told me what jumping ship meant. Amen. To go AWOL

End of journal entry.

I wake up to pray before work and the Lord speaks to me about what He said the day before.  As He speaks I write and ask questions.  30 minutes later I have another Word – AWOL.

4:25 am – I gave the vision back to the Lord.

4:28 am – Before I heard from God I had agreed to run.

4:41 am – The Lord speaks Psalm 23 to me.  He is my covering, protection, shepherd.

He sings to me the song by Reverend Milton Brunson – Safe in His arms.

4:46 am – He speaks to me the word- OBEDIENCE

4:49 am – This journey will be me evangelizing as fast as I can.  I encourage myself by speaking God will cover me and protect me.  I build my faith for this moment.  I then turn and ask God not to leave me which is something that He said He would never do.  My faith wavered.  God spoke to me and I answered Him by saying, “No Lord……” – He asked me has He ever left me?  Then He asks me will I go, and I say, “Yes, Lord….I will  run.

He gives me His surname – I AM.  Alwonza I AM.

5:11 am – After He called me He then describes me.  Calling me a nomad basically describes my  journey; my path.  As a nomad I would have no place to sleep or stay.

5:15 am – In the middle of writing my understanding down the Lord continued to speak.  It was at this moment that I had fully accepted and believed and was convinced and begin to think about it.

I thought about it often. This was June 30, 2016 and my first day, the day that I did not show up to work was on July 27, 2016.  27 days later.

Day 1.

7/27/2016. Wednesday.


I am pulling away from my first apartment. Alone. On the strength of the Lord amen. In faith. Not looking back amen. This is the freedom that I have been waiting for. Looking for. The joy that I have been waiting for amen.

Song. This is freedom by Tasha Cobbs amen. Is playing while I pull away. Perfect timing amen. Thank You Jesus. Lord I love you and am ready amen. This is the freedom of the Lord. Amen.@1036

End of journal entry. 

During these 27 days I wavered.  I took leave but then went back to work.  I told my friend; only one person.  I gave away everything in my apartment.  I slept in a sleeping bag on the floor in my apartment.

I waited, patiently for the Lord to speak.  I had to hear Him perfectly.  He spoke. I froze.  I got scared.  I panicked. I was anxious.  I was nervous.  I disobeyed.  Yes, after all that preparation I still did not move when He said to move.  Not moving was me not going in to work.  What I was feeling was new.  I had never felt that way before.  I am not perfect, I had disobeyed before and did not feel like this. I couldn’t shake it.

I was at work and my boss came to me and asked me, “why are you here?”  I just stood there. He did not even ask or wait for me to reply.  He just looked at me and then walked away.  Next, I saw his boss and he asked me the same thing.  I was asked why I was there.  I knew it was God.   I had a dream a few nights before that and in the dream my son was telling me dates and talking to me about work.  The dream was coming to pass.

I then made up my mind and followed the new signs that were before me.  I did not move by faith only the first time so this time I was given something to do and a place to be.  I had to be on the road by a certain day to make it to where God was sending me.  This became my confidence.  My motivation.  My foundation.  My will to obey this was greater to me than my will to disobey.  I couldn’t stay home.  I couldn’t go to work anymore.

As I think about how I have been moving in the Lord, He usually gives me a vision or a dream or shows me signs to get me to move.  I move by faith through what I see Him doing and saying.  Yes, saying.  I see His Words, and this helps me with my obedience.  So, I didn’t move on a conversation that I had with God alone, I moved after evidence; a manifestation of what to do next.

I thank God for the way that He speaks to me.

I thank God for meeting me where I am.

I thank God for His patience.

He says that HE speaks twice, three times.  I did not move the first time He spoke, and He gave me another chance according to His Word.

God is Love and He does not want us to fail.

My book; Why I Went AWOL – God Told Me To, is a series book.   At the end of the series is where I am now and how me going AWOL had nothing to do with me but had everything to do with God.

I AM glad that He asked me to go.

The journey was fun.

The video I posted to my social media platforms about this post.  1:24 minutes.



Conversation with Jesus (Blog Entry)


@2:41 pm 

After, Pastor Denard Street, commented, ‘praise God,’ under my Partners Meeting post.  He said ‘Praise God.’  Immediately I began to weep.  I began to ‘Praise God.’  Within seconds the Lord says to me:

God: Pray for me

Me: How do I pray for someone who has everything

God: Pray for the desires of My Heart.  He then proceeds to show me a man of God, a Prophet, that has everything.  

Me: I start to pray for the Prophet.  Everything I pray, for the Lord sends back to me.  

God: The Prophet is an example. There is a place, where we have everything.  

God: Pray for me

Me: Lord, I pray that your desires are fulfilled.  Lord, I pray that the desires of your heart are fulfilled.  Lord I pray that you find a people that are surrendered and yielded to you.  Lord, a people that will not fight you.  

God: He shows me His church.  I began to weep.  God is looking for a church that will surrender.  He calls HIS church FAITH.

I thought God had everything.  God has desires in His heart that He needs fulfilled.  

I looked at it a second time and it says ‘Praise God.’ This time it was a command to ‘praise God.’ A command to praise God means to praise God because it is already done. Sealed.  God heard my prayer and answered it.  


He that has an ear – use it to hear God’s voice


Labels for The Anointing Oil


These labels are so PRETTY!


I placed the order for my oils on today.  Placed and paid for.  Getting all ready for the release of The Anointing Oil.

I am so excited.

I met my distributor through the lady that braided my hair.

Wednesday 9/5/2018 – got hair braided.

Thursday 9/6/2018 – met my distributor through a friend of my braider.  (3 people in all)

Monday 9/24/2018 – sampled oil and fragrances.

Tuesday 9/25/2016 – purchased oil and received proof of labels.

19 days later I own my first business.

Talk about divine connections.  Whew!  I am so glad that I was where I was supposed to be. Carrying around an idea as a spiritual seed can be draining.  But when your steps are ordered by the Lord, Who! Who! What! can stop you?  My whole life has changed, and my business has been birthed all because the Lord told me to go get my hair braided.  To God, be the glory.

Ok.  So, the labels have 5 differently colored butterflies on them. Butterflies represent life; growth. A stage of growing and change.  This stage is process.  The butterfly’s process began at birth and he walked on the ground and in the trees.  He fed off of low branches and the high ones.  His whole caterpillar life was of always getting higher.  One day his attempts are all satisfied, and he finds one place to remain, hidden, for his transformation.

He wraps himself, totally consuming himself, in what he has been eating and growing towards.  He has found a place and entrusted his blind faith into this area.  Once engulfed in all of work he rests.  He cocoons himself and sleeps, rests, waiting for the next.  As he rests he thinks of what he will become.  As he rests he thinks on what he will do when he emerges. He rests totally in faith.

The Anointing Proof LabelsThese labels are so pretty

The butterflies are divinely placed and colored.  Strategically chosen; not by me but by God.  Someone else created this template, sold it to Office Depot, and I was led to purchase it through revelation.  The oil is anointed and so are the labels; Revelation carries weight in the spirit.

COLORS: The Meaning of Colors submitted by Raetta Parker (in Bold Font)

Blue: Revelation of Knowledge (my revelation)

Light blue is associated with health, healing, tranquility, understanding, and softness.

Dark blue represents knowledge, power, integrity, and seriousness.

Orange: Love (my revelation)

Orange represents enthusiasm, fascination, happiness, creativity, determination, attraction, success, encouragement, and stimulation.

Green: Life (my revelation)

Green is the color of nature. It symbolizes growth, harmony, freshness, and fertility.

¨      Green has strong emotional correspondence with safety.

Dark green is also commonly associated with money.

¨      Green has great healing power. It is the most restful color for human eyes; it can improve vision.

Gold/yellow: Bold. (my revelation)

Gold evokes the feeling of prestige. The meaning of gold is illumination, wisdom, and wealth. Gold often symbolizes high quality.

Yellow is the color of sunshine. It’s associated with joy, happiness, intellect, and energy.

¨      Yellow produces a warming effect, arouses cheerfulness, stimulates mental activity, and generates muscle energy.

Purple: Royalty (mine; probably because I heard it in church or through church somewhere)

Light purple evokes romantic and nostalgic feelings.  Purple combines the stability of blue and the energy of red.

¨      Purple is associated with royalty. It symbolizes power, nobility, luxury, and ambition.

¨      It conveys wealth and extravagance.

¨      Purple is associated with wisdom, dignity, independence, creativity, mystery, and magic.

Again, being planted by the Father for such a time to birth what He has placed inside of me.  I could not have come up with this oil, anointed it, or chosen such beautiful, prophetic labels in my own strength.  I give all of the glory to God.  AMEN

As I made the video for receiving the proof for the labels, I received the revelation of the colors.  The colors can be chosen at purchase.  Whatever your need there is a butterfly to supply it. No more cocoons or wonderings about what the Lord has placed inside of you.

As I started writing this blog post the Lord took over.  He wrote the introductory paragraph and this ending one.  He has written His own message glorifying His work.  Through me He gets all of the Glory.  All of the Praise.  I am nothing without Him.

Thank you Jesus for birthing your vision through me.

This video is capturing my excitement and showing to the world the label samples for the first time.  2:07 minutes

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The Anointing

The Anointing is an oil.

It has no scent.

It has no fragrance.

It can be combined with any liquids, lotions, oils, or soaps that you already use.

It is very light.

It will be available on October 5, 2018.

I am very excited that it has already arrived.

The video below is 1:13 minutes.

Stalemate – I lay down my king; I lose

Stalemate.  It is a term used by chess players.  I am not going to go that deep into explaining chess, but I will say that if you ever hear it, it means that you cannot move any more.

Today, while praying, I heard the Lord say to me, “stalemate.”  I cried a little but then realized a little of what He was saying.  I play chess.  I like chess.  Stalemate to me means to me that I cannot move anymore.  In chess you can run from your opponent, chase him, or let him lose on his own.  Well, God wasn’t chasing me.  I was actively running, nowhere.  Everywhere I ran to He was there.  From the East Coast to the West.  He was there.  Just like a chess board, all the way around and He would find me there.

Now hindsight that was good.

As He spoke this word I was meditating on the scriptures Luke 9:19 and down.  It wasn’t a meditation that I chose; more like one that He chose.  I kept reading it over and over. Soon I was thanking Him.  Whatever came to mind I began to go deeper with.  Then the: STALEMATE.

I began to google the word. I knew it was a chess move as I often refer to God about whose move it is.  We go back and forth like this.  Well, in a stalemate, the game is over.

After I read the google definition I went deeper.  I enquired. I put people into the place of pieces. I placed myself as the king being checked by God.  There was nowhere else for me to move.  What? Nowhere else for me to go?  What was God speaking?  I dried my tears and listened.  I had a vision of the Lord Jesus laying His life down.  No one could take His life, He laid it down.  I then reached out to God, hands open arms outstretched and head raised saying,
“Lord I surrender.  Into your hands I commit my soul,” then I thought about it and changed it to, “spirit.”

After saying those words to God, I had to think about what I was actually saying.  I was like, thinking, like what did I just say…….

Immediately, I thought of Jesus being persecuted.  Luke 9:22 – Son of man must suffer.  As He prayed, Moses and Elijah, came and spoke to Him about His death.  Peter spoke about building three tabernacles.  Luke 9:34-35 – God, the Father, in a cloud overshadowed them and spoke that Jesus is His beloved Son: hear Him.  Even now revelation is pouring in and I know that I must listen to Jesus.

Eye opener – apparently, I wasn’t. Nah!  I was. But I recognize that hearing now will be different.

Stalemate.  Even I f I wanted to run anymore I couldn’t.  Every move I considered was right back into His hands.  So, I laid my king down.  I surrendered.  Totally unto the other team.  The Father, The Son, and the Holy Ghost.  They had won, and I was defeated.

My new life.  Amen.


First blog post


I have started this blog to continue my journaling. I have been journaling for over 8 years.  I am now capturing my journaling into books.  For the remainder of the month of December, 2017, my journaling and my blogging will overlap.

This blog, with my full intentions, are to replace journaling for me.  I have captured a lot off line and now want to generate my content online.  I have tried blogging before and I really enjoyed it.  I did not continue with it because I got side tracked.  Since then, my focus and my maturity level have increased and I have come to know and realize that blogging is easier.  Journaling has been very convenient but transferring the content is not.

I am very excited about picking up blogging again.  This blog will mimic my journaling, which I hope will keep my mental transition to a minimum.  I have chosen this platform because I can use it anywhere; on my phone, laptop, library’s, borrowed gadgets, and more.  There is no limit to my posting.  Which, with my journaling, I was limited to my Apple devices, no libraries, and sometimes pen and paper.

The world is advancing.  New generations are being born everyday.  This era is growing more and more steadily to electronics.  I have to keep up; I have to get onboard or miss out.  Life will leave you behind and I refuse to be back there, straining to see what is happening in front of me.

So, on this blog, my day to day will be revealed.  People I encounter.  Places I go.  People I meet.  Lessons I learn and have learned and  how God uses me.  Nothing is limited because I live in a world, serving a God, of endless possibilities.

Of curse, I will keep you informed of the progress of my publishings and you, too, can hold me accountable.  I have over 10 books written but none published.  My goal this upcoming year is to publish 8 of them which will include my series of Conversations with God.

Conversations With God is comprised of 8 books, arranged chronologically, since 2015,  with one entry from 2012.  I have daily been capturing our conversations as He has led me through many valleys an over numerous hills.  He has defeated legions of Goliaths for me and brought down insanely high walls.  I have crossed many rivers and spent countless days and nights in the dessert.  Living in the wilderness has become the norm.  Trusting Him to have my back allows me to walk blindly, faithfully forward.  I grabbed hold of the plow and I ask myself who is my mother and my father.

And then, only after 2 years of gaining testimonies, did I realize it is not by works.  It is not the fasting, or the communions, the consecrations, the tests or the trials; it is the love that I have for my Heavenly Father and for everyone that I have and will cross paths with.  I learned this through journaling.  I learned this through relationship with the Father.  I learned this through obedience to Jesus Christ.  If it was of works I would boast but it is by grace through faith, which is a gift from God.  A gift, just because, He loved me first.  A gift I did not realize I had and that I could only open after He called me and brought it to my attention.  I love Him for it and you will witness that in this blog.

When I am not blogging I am posting on Instagram @alatoyav.

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